I love you, but I HAD to let you go.
You were my best friend for a decade. We did and saw so much together. This relationship once was so light-hearted and fun but soon turned into the darkness. Leaving me empty promises and a cycle I just could not let go of because I couldn’t let you go. You had me at first sip, every single time.
You have caused me much grief in my life, and I can’t have this toxic love affair anymore. I wake up heartbroken with a world of shame and guilt that takes over my soul, leaving me with thoughts and feelings of wanting to die. I don’t understand why when I feel like this after having many nights together. I always come back, and it doesn’t matter how bad you were to me. When will I learn? I need to walk away, I have tried over and over again to change the dynamics of this relationship, but I always come back to this same place. You are beyond intoxicating with a hint of glamour, and I hate that you have this pull on...
Episode 13 of our @realalignedwomen podcast is out today and we talk all about my Infertility journey. This episode is near and dear to my heart, I get Real and Raw with this one. For those of you who are struggling in silence. Don’t. It’s to much to go through alone. I went through all the stages of grief with this and have finally come to a place of peace and 2018 was my year for that. There was one blog I wrote years back describing my journey and mentally I have come along way since then. Hope you enjoy!
For sure shopping became my way to feel better. Having a bad day, good day, emotional day I would shop!! It became the norm for the first two years of my recovery. Which now I am happy to have gone through it because I learned.
Fast Forward to the last year and a half, I have really been focusing on changing my relationship around with money and been working on Dave Ramsey, Baby steps. I've gotten myself out of some debt following these steps and have felt more in control of all my money and finances. I share this with you because you could be sitting there drowning in debt and have no clue of where to...
It is Tuesday so I have to share this Transformation..
For me the biggest transformation I have had in my life was the day I chose to stop the madness and cycle of addiction. I could of continued of course BUT I finally listened to my soul which it was telling me at 24 to stop.
I didn't listen, obvi. I went thru 1,000 rock bottoms and it was finally time when I lost my cat for the second time and my then boyfriend was telling me "you can continue drinking but I'm not sticking around to continue this ride with you."
So at 29, I said I was done and that was my final rock bottom.
Are you wondering, do you need a rock bottom to quit drinking?
The answer is simply, NO!
You sure don't you can stop before shit gets worse.
My friend Lori Massicot and Real Aligned Women partner sat down recently and discussed all of this on her podcast To 50 and Beyond! We get real here.
At one point I had to say this is all coming from a place of love because I'm so...
Healthy Body Tips!
Do you ever feel like you don't know where to start with the whole wellness avenue? You have a pretty good idea but feels overwhelming? I did to when I first started on this path over 5 years ago. Remember guys I ate my feelings that first year of recovery. Once I got that foundation down, I then proceeded to move forward with my overall health, fitness and nutrition. Here is a list I put together for you to help narrow it down. Don't feel like you have to do all in one day, take it a day at a time. All these tips will also help you feel mentally better!
Here are 31 things you can do right now to make your life healthier..
1) Sleep 8 hours a night
2) Drink a shot of apple cider vinegar each day
3) Take 10 deep breaths in and out
4) Cut out soda, juice, sugar-sweetened drinks, diet soda
5) Stop eating at 7-8ishpm
6) Eat veggies for breakfast(spinach is great in an omelet)
7) Do 3 planks and hold them as long as possible
8. Increase your omega 3 fatty acids (fish oil, flax...
My first sober New Years Eve circa 2012 and only about 4.5 months into my recovery. That first year was was hard AF and I mean AS FUCK!
This picture came up on my memories and it instantly took me back to that night and those feels. I ate my feelings that evening, was ridden with anxiety, had FOMO, was sad I wasn’t drunk(yep), cried but also had a moment of clarity at dinner where I thought man this isn’t so bad and this is going to just be my new normal, life without dirty martinis and blackouts. I was a mess that evening cause NYE is one of my favorite holidays and I had to grieve how I once spent it doing the same thing for 10 years. Grieve it.. cry, yell, laugh, be angry! It’s a healthy process and one you must do, to let it go and embrace the new life that is at your door step.
I’m grateful for these memories cause it really makes you see how far you have come mentally.
It doesn’t matter what day it is, everyday is the perfect day to say NO to the...
Hi friends, I wanted to share with you about my lack of writing words for my blog. I have started to shift my focus on another project with helping women in Recovery along with starting a PODCAST! I will still blog, just won't be all the time. I really love podcasting and super excited about this form of expression.
I wanted to share this hear so for anyone who does follow this blog and is not connected with me on my social media platforms, you have this opportunity to know about it.
Two recovering alcoholics meet on instagram over 3 years ago, form a friendship, support one another, share their love of all things wellness, BRAVO, helping others and then form this RAW partnership.
My friend Lori and I, Recovery membership site is going awesome with being able to help and support women in recovery and even women you are still in active addiction wanting to get sober. We also launched our RAW podcast over a month ago and we are loving the amazing love and support we are receiving.
I got married 3 years and 2-ish months Sober and this day was amazing and more.
I always hear women say their wedding was the best day of their life. Mine wasn’t(god bless brides who love this shit but wedding planning and all that went with it made my right eye twitch for months) I mean, it was an amazing day and weekend in Savannah and I’m thrilled to be Mrs. Andersen! However, the best day of my life was the day I finally said enough was enough to the madness of my cycle of addiction with alcohol..8•18•12
I had many people ask me if I was going to toast with champagne at my wedding to you know, celebrate! Toasting with cola or a mocktail works just as well.
I had to keep reminding them of what would happen to me if I did drink.. I lose it all and would define the word BRIDEZILLA!! That is what many don’t understand, drinking is a fucking death sentence to people who are alcoholics. So one sip leads to a downward spiral of shame, numbness, isolation,...
Once you quit, things just don’t get better over night.
It’s a process, you have to do the work(whichever type is right for you) on yourself and trust the process of getting very uncomfortable with feelings. For so long we were afraid of feelings. They are not the end of the world.
Feelings are emotionally energy, not personality traits!! You may be stuck in a feeling for some time, I know when I got sober I was sad for the first year with some angry rage in there. I mean I was a dick but that’s all part of the process...you are grieving.
In a matter of 6 weeks I quit drinking, lost my sweet Jerry and then quit smoking for her. Yes for her, if I didn’t make that promise to her I would still be smoking cigs today. For reals. That was a lot to lose at once and for some reading this you may think, what’s the big deal? But alcohol and cigs were my bestie, I was addicted to them and they were a shield of protection for me. That’s the story I created in...
Funny thing about addiction.. it does not discriminate. Lots of people have told me when I tell them I’m a recovering alcoholic that they would of never guessed. White female, grew up middle class, well traveled and educated and I was a mess.
I know there are lots of people who question their relationship with alcohol. If you are questioning that, there mostly likely is. But that is not up for me to decide for you.
Even though I was not a daily drinker, I binged. I could go days without it but man oh man once it touched my lips..goodnight sweet Irene. I would be on a mission to get drunk AF for days and wouldn’t stop. I will say and want to make this loud to the world, you don’t have to drink every day to be an alcoholic. This is a HUGE stigma.
My life revolved around drinking. My fun revolved drinking. My relationships revolved around drinking. Drinking. Drinking. Drinking. It controlled me but the physical act of drinking again was not everyday. Fucking...